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KBTV::Wow 5 a.m.!

I sometimes ask myself if this is all sustainable – the sleep deprivation, the heat, the constant call for content, the phone calls, the humidity, the e-mails, appointments, and finally the Blackberry thumb – my painful right thumb.

I found myself shooting an e-mail to a friend at 5 a.m. this morning. It read:

Wow! 5 a.m.!!

I hope you got some sleep … I was thinking about you last night, and I was contemplating that question of how you can possibly garner any good, real sleep … and if the act of actually sleeping soundly was made more difficult by the fact that you are physically in different beds many nights of the week … I mean styles of beds, types of bedrooms, textures of covers, etc. Hmmm.

I feel pretty good and am excited about the shoot today. I haven’t been up on the roof, yet, but it’s supposed to be beautiful again today!

(OK, PUT ON YOUR SEATBELT)
On a somewhat reflective note, I believe that I see further evidence that this healthy eating/recurrent exercise/daily meditation/prayer/giving back/spiritual LIFE … that it works … because I manage to work these crazy hours – with no coffee, or caffeine of any kind – and be relatively even keeled and very, very happy and content . It’s interesting because when I was keeping the same types of hours at CNBC or CNN I was – quite literally – a VAT, a TROUGH, a BARREL of continual, never-ending complaints and gripes. I was just perennially dissatisfied. Just a thought …

That said, I know that MUCH OF THIS happiness, joy and contentment … I attribute to having a life where I don’t have to streak out of bed to the sound of a screeching alarm, dive into synthetic pantyhose, whip out of my apartment past my doorman, and go sit in an office, on a prestigious floor, in a company where there is no on I would ever possibly want to have dinner with ever again.

It might be 5 a.m., but the sun is rising, and the weather is warm and moist and I can simply slip on my big fuzzy pink slippers and pad across the hallway into my office and plop down at my computer and plot out a day where at least I’ll feel like at the end of it … that I’ve at least done something that I enjoy and that I believe in. I might be broke and exhausted, but I’m happy ;-)

Have a wonderful day! Love, Kate

Hmmmm. Because now it’s 9:40 p.m. and I’m asking myself: “Hey Kate, where did all that peace, serenity, calm and gratitude go?”

Then I sit down and read my script for tomorrow, and I remember – ah! It always comes in the morning. (Stay tuned for tomorrow’s shooting script.)

Obviously, to be continued!

posted by rjoyner @ 11:04 AM